One of my favorite verses is 'For God has not given us a spirit of fear but of power and of love and of a sound mind.' 2 Timothy 1:7. It's the verse I pray over my family and myself, the verse I always tell my friends, the verse that I'm constantly repeating over and over. There is such a spirit of fear out in the world that you have to deliberately focus on not being afraid. It's not from God.
When we started doing shows for a living and Jason quit his good paying job to do this, I was afraid but my excitement overcame the fear. It didn't hit me until a few months later when we actually had to figure out how to do what God was calling us to do. I would wake up at 3 am wondering what I've done! The booth fees, cost of raw materials for our products, trying to figure out how to make the products, etc. all came rushing at me at 3 am. What was I doing to my kids? It's not a normal life. We traveled to different states every weekend. I would call us circus people (nothing wrong with circus people LOL) but it's a lot of traveling and moving around. One time when Sammy was 16, Jason and Xavier left for South Carolina and my mom and I left for Alabama for 5 days! I always felt guilty that I just left. We now talk about it and laugh. She doesn't remember me leaving! I believe God gave me low maintenance children for a reason. Xavier is at the age now that he doesn't want to/can't go with us. After the last show, I know he is capable of taking care of himself and the cats. The house was almost as clean as when we left it and the cats were alive and happy (as happy as cats get)!
I now know fear doesn't accomplish anything. It makes you stay put and not do want you are meant to do. So I pray that all of us are bold and fearless.